Staying out of the darkness.

Hello Survivors. It has been a while.

I hope that you all are doing well. I can say that I am doing better at the moment than I have been lately. This blog, as always, is a personal one for me because I want to talk about keeping yourself mentally and emotionally out of the darkness.

When I use the term "darkness," I'm referring to a dark place where you're not fully mentally and emotionally connected. You're in a place where you're lost, not in control, and have no place in mind where to start to get yourself from out of that place of darkness.

In May, I decided to leave my job for (3) years because I started my internship, and I wouldn't do both. Thankfully I am fortunate enough to take care of myself in the meantime while being at my internship.

With that being said, you would think that everything is gravy? Ahh, yes and no. With me not working, I've focused more on my school work, and I've also been able to fully enjoy my internship without any interruptions or distractions from going to someone's job and clocking in.

I'll be transparent with you and share that my internship is unpaid. As I previously said, I'm fortunate to take care of myself during this time, but I want to start making money again. I want to be back in a space where I'm providing for myself. These feelings may not make sense to everyone, but I know someone can relate to this.

I'm also nervous about starting a new job and staying strong by finding a new employment place. I've applied to a few jobs and had a couple of interviews, but I haven't been successful. And I'm starting to get discouraged. There have been many moments where I've had to pull myself out of the darkness.

I have to remind myself that my name is already in rooms before I get there.

Money flows through me.

I will be successful in everything that I do.

For me, I like to repeat affirmations to myself in my moment of weakness. As soon as I feel as though I'm slipping back into the darkness, I have to stop and pray. Repeat my affirmations. Workout. Journal. Just something. I have to keep moving and not let myself slip back into the darkness. My mind deserves so much more!

I feel like we have to get to a point in our lives when the darkness comes to face it head-on and not let ourselves fall into that place. Pull out your affirmations, journal, bible, listen to your favorite playlist or podcast, or go outside and let some fresh air hit your face. Survivors continue to push fourth through the darkness and not let it overcome you. I love you all and Ill will continue to blog for you all :)