Relationships

The other day I was talking to one of my friends and we were just having our usual girl talk you know how that goes and she begins to tell me that “Being single gets so boring I wish I was in a relationship”and I said to her “honestly I am really content with being by myself for RIGHT NOW!”. I say this because emotionally I’ve been through a lot in relationships. From being accused of things I’ve never done, to being cheated on, called out my name, and so fourth. It was ALOT. Before I wanted to be in a relationship so bad that I would just keep accepting any and everything..Stupid right? But hey everyone learns their lesson in their own time. My lesson was to learn my self worth and to know what I expect in a relationship (commitment, protection, support, you water me I water you type of love). But in order to do all this I had to do some soul searching. Asking God to show me what I really needed to do ( I’m not perfect so I needed to ask God what I was doing wrong). I wanted to walk differently, talk differently, and to see through all the b.s I was looking over. “After I saw the light” as you would say my taste for a relationship was non exists end. I was more focused on me. Being content with myself was an amazing feeling that I didn’t expect to feel because I didn’t have someone telling me I was instead I was telling myself that. As I got further along my journey I saw more upsides to being single. Being single for me now means it’s time for growth and maturity. I’ve currently been single for 2 years now (yes I’ve talked to people but no one has really caught my interest for a relationship) . I’ve been dating myself is what I like to call it. I’ve learned so much from myself. God is good and I thank him for bringing me out of my dark place and bringing me to the other side. Walking into my next relationship I know what I deserve. In my prayers I pray that God prepares my future mate to be everything that I want. I know he’s out there and he will FIND ME. I will not find him. Anything that I chased doesn’t last always. If you are reading this and you to have struggled with self acceptance or self love or being single I pray that my testimony reaches you to examine yourself and ask God to relieve that pressure off of you! It’s too much weight to carry. Let it go! You won’t regret it ✨