Letting God Handle IT

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.” – Proverbs 3:5-6

This is one of the most popular and most quoted bible verses in the Bible, however, when we find ourselves going through trying times (Speaking for myself as well), I tend to forget all about this scripture. The Lord tells us clearly not to lean on our own understanding. We are to let go and let God handle it. God knows exactly what He is doing and as His children we should be able to trust Him no matter how crazy the situation may look.

**Story Time (testimony)

In my previous blogs I've shared my story about my life after graduation and continuing my education. The process of me getting into an Occupational Therapy graduate program was a struggle. In order to enter the program, one of the requirements is that you must receive a 300 or higher on your GRE. With me, I am not good at standardized testing. My scores weren't terrible but they weren't the best (I took the exam 3 times and received scores in the range of 280-291). With these scores I felt as though I wasn't good enough. I felt as though this exam was haunting me. I would constantly worry about my test scores not being good enough. Despite how I felt I submitted my applications anyways. Rejection letter after rejection letter..nothing was looking up for me. And I didn't know what to do next. The start of 2017 was full of regret and disappointment. With everything not going my way and seeing no light at the end of the tunnel I finally sat down with God and asked Him "What is my purpose God?" "What am I truly suppose to be doing?" Then I would start to get angry and frustrated with God because I would ask Him these questions but I saw no sign (as some people call it) or a response from God that would direct me to my purpose.

After not hearing anything from God, still sitting out of school I began to think of other ways I could get a response from God (this may sound silly but I needed God). I needed God to save me from myself because I started to lose focus. I started putting my focus into other things. I would escape going to God for my troubles and I would try to fix them myself (I had other situations going on in my life as well besides school). And of course, everything I would try to put my hands on to fix it didn't work out. I shouldn't be surprised right? I thought God saw my pain and worry and I thought He would bless me. But no. Frustration, disappointment, tears after tear just kept building up. Proverbs 19:3 People ruin their lives by their own foolishness and then are angry at the Lord. This was me. Ruining my own life and blaming God for it. When bad things happen to us God isn't the blame for it. At all. I had to see that for myself taking accountability for my actions was step 1 in the right direction. Romans 14:12 All of us will have to give an account of ourselves to God.

One Sunday I went to church (FWPC) and Pastor Quincy was teaching on the scripture Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. So I took this scripture and meditated on it. Then I broke it down. "We know that for those who love God all things work together for good". I said to myself well I do love God. Yes, I was frustrated with the Lord but I do love him. I was frustrated with Him because I was truly frustrated with myself and needed someone to blame. And God said nah it’s not going down like that. The next part of the verse reads "or those who are called according to his purpose.” I said to myself God I have been asking you what my purpose is and I still don’t know... And God said just wait you will see. So I waited and I waited and I waited.....

As I waited I realized what I was truly going through. This was my season. My silent season. Where I had to do my part and wait for the Lord to guide me. In order for me to give my ALL to him I deleted all of my social media accounts (Facebook, Instagram, Snap chat). I chose to fast from social media because I literally would be on there when I woke up, fell asleep, bored, or whatever. So instead of being on there I would utilize my time to do something else (when going through your season give up everything that distracts you and takes away from your relationship with God. If you don’t remove it He will. TRUST ME!). With utilizing my time, I began to spend more time with God. Spending time with God and focusing on His word gave my body and mind the nourishment it needed. My mind and my soul were beginning to grow stronger. I was letting go of myself and getting lost in His word. Getting lost in His word gave me the purpose I have today.

God has truly been my navigator in this season. This season has taught me to cast anything and everything I am going through unto the Lord for He will save me. And God did just that. I am happy to announce that I’ve been accepted into 2 Public Health Master Programs. Even though Public Health wasn't my first thought I knew I would still find my purpose. My sole purpose in life is to help people but in this field. Once I did my research and spoke with a few colleagues my interest in Public Health began to grow more and more each day.

Handing my situations/problems over to God was the best thing I’ve ever done. Total surrender. Surrendering myself to the Lord freed me from everything that was keeping me bounded. Romans 11:32 For God has imprisoned everyone in disobedience so he could have mercy on everyone. How long do you want to be bounded to your situation? Aren’t you tired of feeling lost, heartbroken, angry, and distracted? God said if you just cast your cares upon me I will save you. If you just sit still and LET GO! God will take over and He will provide. Psalm 115:11-12 All you who fear the LORD, trust the LORD! He is your helper and your shield. The LORD remembers us and will bless us.

With this testimony I am not try to gloat or say I have everything together now (because I DONT. I am still a walking testimony). I am sharing my testimony to inspire someone who has been going through the same silent storm I’ve been going through. It doesn't have to be about school it could be about anything. But the actions are still the same. Trust the process that God is trying to take you on because He is setting you up for something amazing. More than you could ask or think.

For my God brings OVERFLOW. Stay the course He has put you on because He will sustain your path. You have this just HOLD ON. You are the head and not the tail. Deuteronomy 28:13 "If you listen to these commands of the LORD your God that I am giving you today, and if you carefully obey them, the LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you will always be on top and never at the bottom." You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. I can truly say I know this well because I have witnessed His love and His mercy.

Thank you for reading my testimony. If you have any questions email me Taylor1.Humphries@gmail.com and I would be happy to answer them. Be blessed :)